I'm at the stage in my life where every decision you choose to make impacts you for the rest of your life. Since i was young i dreamed of going to university, getting a degree in creative writing and being a writer for the rest of my living days. I had it all planned out, everything i wanted to achieve and have. The little cottage in the country with beams and a wood burning stove, one or two puppies to cuddle up with on the sofa in the evenings and a husband who was perfect in every way imaginable. Then i went to college and my views changed. After struggling with stress and anxiety problems the work load i was given was too much, i began to think there is no way i'd be able to cope with the work load that university brings. It was a conversation i had had with my mum that confirmed the path i wanted to follow in life. I wasn't ready to venture off into the big bad world on my own, i wasn't going to pursue the path to university anymore. I wanted and want to pursue instead, my dream of becoming an artist. I've had a passion for art ever since i was little and asked for a sewing machine for my 5th birthday. It's in my blood to be creative, all my grandparents are artists and have been for a very long time. I love the idea of creating pieces of artwork that have real meaning behind them for you, yet have a whole other meaning for someone else. The thought of doing something i love every day for the rest of my life is beyond exciting.
The scary thoughts that were running through my mind about leaving home, being on my own and struggling at university are a blissful memory. I have a new path in life now and i'm going to follow it until i have accomplished all i want to accomplish. I still want my diddy little cottage in the country, one or two puppies and a perfect husband but now i also need an extra bedroom for my art studio and i'll be the happiest girl in the world.
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